I think i might suffer from PMS, despite the physical impossibility implied.  Every 3.odd weeks I have several days where every single thing pisses me off and it begins with waking up.  The sound of family members cleaning their teeth through the walls pisses me off, a creak in the floor board as i droop out of bed pisses me off...  I could fill an entire bible of things that piss me off during these several days but it just wouldn't make for very good reading.

The other day I bitched at Dave for not tagging me for an anxiety meme, the reason being that it won't be very long until even my passport says anxiety as my occupation.  Now someone called kevin saw my rant and did the honours.

Unfortunately due to the PMS i'm really not in the mood to do it, i'd be much better at 5 things that make you anxious which would go something like this...

• Bitching about not being tagged for a meme and then feeling heavily pressured to give GOOD answers to it.
• Having to answer the fucking phone (does a martha wainwright impression).
• Being left to talk to people i really don't know very well.
• Feeling pressured into completing my weekly goals.
• Remembering that I have to live this stupid life.

Ah well, here goes, i suppose i have to do this thing now and apologies in advance. I've put them in order of severity, the first being something that only works with mild anxiety...

1. Jump around to loud music.
2. Code something (depends on the clarity of mind and is very touch and go).
3. Watch a beloved comedy, such as day today, I'm alan partridge, family guy etc. Strangely south park doesn't work.
4. Leave the house for a 5+ mile walk to nowhere, only turning back when the vale dissolves.
5. Lie in bed and try to doze off to softly softly chopin type piano.

A testament to diversity is Neil who for his answers included both Talking to parents and Reading blogs, 2 things i would rate quite highly as major stress inducers, especially when bloglines says i have over 700 entries unread which invariably happens after several lazy days.

I'm supposed to tag 5 other people but that's way too much pressure

This has been happening an awful lot lately on bloglines, does anyone know what causes it?  It's damn annoying because obviously clicking on a folder marks them all as read, and using the "display last 24 hours" on all of a folder simply causes the same thing to happen so i have to go through each feed individually.

It's Interpol on Monday and I had completely forgotten, don't chya love it when that happens, the tickets arrived today and I held them as if i'd won the lottery, jumping up and down. haha.  I've seriously waited years to see this band.  It's at the octagon (Shef Uni's venue), haven't been there in years, it has a school assembly hall type feel and the acoustics are always really great.  Its gonna be soooo goooooood!

Forgot to mention that tuesday i went past sheffields Marriot hotel, which is in a pretty leafy suberb and because of the G8 peeps staying there is all bordered up and theres army green barracades and tons of police patrolling, it was actually quite scary, i thought i was in northern ireland for moment. haha.  There was nothing in the way of a demonstration but they are here for a few days and the main demos are taking place in the city centre, the majority of which is being blocked off to traffic and even people for the 2 days that they are actually in talks. Rather disgraceful, the only place that they are letting people demonstrate is the other side of town, the G8 reps won't even know they are there.  There was however a house opposite the entrance to the hotel decorated in makepovertyhistory stuff, not very well done i might add, looks more like someone has T.P'd their house.

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In the early 90's as silly little scamps a friend and i wrote an adventure game creator/editor for the amiga, nothing too fancy, just text adventures with the odd graphics and sounds.  It was genius because we came up with a way of making it extremely easy to do, just by clicking here and there, oh and it was called Seka, haha.  Anyway, for some reason this popped into my head today, and then immediately afterwards so for some reason did GPS.  And then i put the two things together and what a great idea!  Instead of using fictional locations for your adventure game, you could use real ones.  When you go on your country walks for a bit of exercise, see if someone has uploaded a game for where you are and make entertainment out of your walk.

Would anyone like to be a venture capitalist for my Seka GPS Pro hand-held project?  If my quick mock-up isn't enough to wet your appetite then hell, what is!?

Yeah

How it works is this... you are given ten questions, and then have to enter your answer into Google Images to see what comes up for each one. You can either take the first hit, pick a favorite, or however you want to do it so that your answer ends up being a picture...

1. The place you grew up.
2. The place you live now.
3. Your name.
4. Your grandmother's name.
5. Your favorite food.
6. Your favorite drink.
7. Your favorite song.
8. Your favorite smell.
9. Your favorite shoes.
10. Your favorite number.

Speaking of sheffield, we're the 3rd (or 4th depending on whether or not we beat manchester) to get an apple store in the UK, which is kinda cool but i can't help but wonder if the execs have actually been here and know what a dump it is.

OMG, the six feet under season opener was so depressing! It killed me, it really did.  Still, its so great to have it back and already i can smell many strong storylines are on their way. It's the final season so it better be potent stuff and if it's anything like last year you know it will be all i talk about on here until the finale..  When this season is finished i am so gonna be struggling for great shows.

• Oooph i'm all sweaty.
• I've been forgetting (again) to keep a journal thingy for counselling.  Damnit to hell and back again.  But i bet a thousand dollars i still don't add to it after writing this.
• I think i've just discovered to my horror that mysql 3.x does inner joins extreeemely slooowwwwly.
• I keep sneezing.
• Someone is ignoring me.
• For some reason on x-plane 8 london-Heathrow appears to be in the middle of the ocean.
• The new royksopp LP is hugely disappointing.  My favourite tracks on their début were the blips-and-bleeps ones.  But all the tracks on the new LP are pretty much smooooth lounge music like blue states, zero 7 and all that nonsense. There's one track i adore called "What Else Is There" involving some female vocalist who has a beautiful fragile child like voice.  Makes yer hairs stand up. I reckon Only This Moment will be the first single, you can tell 'cos its so over-produced that its ended up a blurred nothingness.
• I've a fair few tracks to get through and judge before i poke a big finger towards it, but the best LP's of 2005 half way mark is almost ready.  You can see it as it is so far here, this year it's being compiled automatically by my super duper code.
• And thats all the weather.

Oh my word, i wanted to have a play with inkscape so i started designing some icons.  Haha, they were supposed to look cute but they've turned out, yucky. Just done the usual browsery icons so far.  I'm sure i'll be bored enough soon to complete the set. Gawd. You'll have to be a clicky-wicky to see them in their full horrifying glory.

Why do i always end up somehow resenting people who are friends / were friends?  I must remember to get to the bottom of it i certainly think it would be an avenue worth pursuing.  It's only natural to think that your own feelings and behaviours are normal and its difficult to rethink them.  Shit.  And i'm fucking doing it again.  I'm so worried that now i've ended up making myself perspire and its gross. yuck.

What do people fucking expect of me?

Chris Martin: "We're like an eager dog just yapping around their heels, and they're trying to kick us away," he jokes. "It's like unrequited love. I'm in love with a lot of things. Some of those things love me back. And some of them don't -- and one of them is Radiohead."

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Write something that is at least as good as Radiohead's worst and maybe they'll talk. Sheesh.  OK, maybe i'm mean to them, there are bands even blander than coldplay but god, i just know that as soon as x+y is released it will be all we ever hear about for a least a month. I'll scream, I really will.